As I look back at the last few entries I put on here it makes me want to cry...
The happiness I had then has faded...quickly...and now...now I dont even know what to do anymore...my life has changed so dramatically in the last few weeks and I hate it so much....my last posts kind of show how I feel...Im in the process of writing some things to post as well...
Short and to the point, my fiance is not at all who he seemed and his life is full of lies it seems and I feel betrayed and hurt isnt even the right word to begin to descibe how I feel....sigh....
I feel like I cant even think straight...my head is spinning with so many thoughts of confusion...its hard to begin to wrap my mind around how much has happened and Im not even going to try and go into details on here because it would go on and on forever...

Well..I guess Im done writing in this thing for right now...I get more and more depressed as each day goes on....I pray at night hoping that none of this is true..that Im insane...and I am crazy for thinking what I think...but I really dont think that anything will ever be set right again..and I am not crazy as much as I wish I could believe I am...
ok wow...Im being really spacey and I feel...I dont know...I just dont know...
I guess....bye everyone